Today has been the hardest by far. Today is when I realized how difficult of a challenge this is really going to be for me. I knew going in that there would be days that I had regret, resentment and a mix of emotions....today was the first of those days. I know this will pass, I know! Today was the first day I went to the grocery store....big mistake! I just was not ready. This addiction has had a strong hold on my life for many years....just like a recovering alcoholic going into a bar I wanted to grab everything off the shelf and shove it in my mouth! I started sweating, feeling faint....and frankly ANGRY! I am so hungry! I want to eat! I am sick of drinking all day and not having food in my mouth. I know this is a process, I know this is a challenge and a HEAD GAME, Today, I did not do so well.....tomorrow will be better. I am going back to work tomorrow so that will be exciting! I will be glad to get out of the house, get back to my new normal.
So far I have lost 12 pounds, so yay!
Until next time....
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